Saturday, July 26

Paying dues.

At some point everyone has to suck it up and pay their dues.  It seems like this is what my husband and I have been doing for the last 4 almost 5 years.  We were married young, well i was young-20 compared to his 26 years of age, and now 41/2 years in we have 2 kids and still aren't doing what we really want to be doing.  For a while we just chalked it up to the fact that we were a young family and we just had to pay our time. I was working a full time job, a part time job, and taking care of things at home while my husband, a stay at home dad, was also working part-time and trying to finish his novel (which is amazing). Life is crazy.  We are tired - all the time. The kids hate it.  So we have been trying to figure out if we have payed enough dues or if there never were any dues in the first place. 

4:30 am I am at work putting an order away while listening to a podcast by Mosaic (church).  The guy is talking about faith.  I had been praying asking God if i should stay at my full time job or not, I felt like God said "its time to leave this job" i of course thought this was crazy and just me not wanting to get up at 3:30 am anymore but then i asked what i would be doing instead since we needed the $$$ and God told me that i wouldn't find out until after i stepped out in faith and left this job then he proceeded to tell me that for confirmation I was to go home and than night, after we put the kids to bed of course, i was suppose to pray with my husband and say these words "God i feel like you told me what i am suppose to do now i ask that you tell Matthew". So I did.  It took a while. Matthew didn't like it at all and thought i was pressuring him so I explained again what God had told me and we tried again and Matthew, not knowing at all what God had told me got confirmation from God.  

Fast forward...I put in my resignation and now I am waiting on what God has for us.  I am terrified.  But I am only 25 years old right now and I would rather be doing this now than when I'm 40 years old with a mortgage and teenagers and everything else that comes as we "grow up".  

So here's to paying dues and trusting God